The official date has just been confirmed. Come 5th May 2006, I will be flying off to Shanghai for my new attachment.
Many have came to ask me so many questions – why the quick and firm decision to go. I am 100% sure about the potential of this move. But I just not 100% sure about the impact I caused due to my sole decision. Honestly, it took me less than 24 hours to make that decision to go. It isn’t a very difficult decision to make. Shanghai is certanly "the place" to be in – China has been opening and growing since mid-1990s. In fact, I would like to be there to witness China’s golden era of economic thrusts. From now till 2010, there are so many things to witness and learn.
What’s difficult is leaving my attachments behind… my fellowship at Caffeine Group, my lovely 2 girls, my cozy home, my pet Jaja, my parents, my Wahbiang friends and most importantly, bobo and elkan. The last 2 weeks were bad and heavy-hearted for me. I began to feel the impact of the new reality. The changes around me were emotionally drastic. I never know my sole decision can affect so many things around me.
Will I look back and undo my decision? No, I am 100% sure of that. Is it worth to leave all these attachments behind for a personal gain? Not at all, it is a totally selfish act. Is it for fame, money or status? None of the 3 – I just need an adventure. To explore my limits. Nothing else.
Like a pebble hitting still water, I started seeing the ripple-effects. So many questions on my head… I really have no idea how to face them or answer them. Things in office and my personal life are moving too fast. I have no time to ponder and procrastinate. Just want to go along with the flow (of the new events) and let the answers surface themselves.
Did I leave a mess behind? NO, I left a legacy. In fact, I had everything perfectly in place before my departure. My business, my family…they are all in place.
So, the next questions are "how long" and "how far"? These are the only 2 questions I am very eager to find out. Certainly not "how much" and "how to".
Will there ever be regret? Yes….. if I leave Elkan behind.