Kiss Goodbye

May 28, 2006 Leave a comment


Felicia has flew back today…Nothing spectacular like the last Changi Airport send-off…Just the 2 of us…side by side…at Pudong Airport.
 
Over the past few days, I have blocked and tried to deny reality from hitting me. I told Meijie last night that I like to forward my time ahead…not that I am looking forward, but I have no wish to lock any moments at this time. I just want to quickly settle my life and excel my agenda here. I tried not to remember the effects of a departure…I just want to get over it fast so that I can quickly be united with my family and friends again.
 
Today, Felicia painted a strange picture to me. Our family is so dispersed right now – Felicia will be in Singapore, Elkan is now in Malacca and Daddy me is now in Shanghai. Such a strange illustration, I tot. (Elkan will be back on Wed and Feli can hug our little baby all week long. 🙂
 
It is just so difficult to say goodbye. At the departure gate, we hugged and she shed tears… For about 15 minutes, Feli can’t bear to walk thru the gate. We just stood there…holding each other back…counting down the minutes and seconds. Eventually, she left.
 
Early this afternoon, I called Meijie & Kalinda to give Feli a ride. Guess she will be delighted to see Meijie at the other end of the journey.
 
When I came back to my hotel, the room that we have stayed was so empty…. Still can feel her presence around… Is Feli lazing on the bed, watching HBO?..Or is she soaking herself in the hot tub now…. I guess I am begining to miss all that now.
 
11pm – Just went down to get my dinner…or supper. Was sitting at "YongHe", waiting for my food when I heard this song playing over the radio…. The lyrics… it perfectly describe my feelings right now….
 

歌手：王力宏 | 作曲：王力宏

填詞：王力宏 | 編曲：王力宏/吳慶隆


Baby不要再哭泣　這一幕多麼熟悉

緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離

每一次想開口　但不如保持安靜

給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美

 

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉

挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量

付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給

別把我心也帶走去跟隨

 

＊每一次和妳分開　深深地被妳打敗

　每一次放棄妳的溫柔　痛苦難以釋懷

　每一次和妳分開　每一次Kiss You Goodbye

　愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白＊


幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉

挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量

付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給

我才明白愛最真實的滋味

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